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PROVERBS 3

It is time to wipe the dust from old value. This time value of sharing. I haven't share long time of what is going on in my life. There are many explanations and one of them is I just haven't understood what is going on. 
It's started few months ago when I felt that God is giving me direction to leave YWAM. Not knowing what is going to be next I just waited but it didn't stop me doing my commitment of mission work. It took me too long to wait and I started to do my own searching, planing, talking for next direction. Through it all I experience difficult time and even now I am feeling consequences. It have been hard period of waiting and training process.

My son, do not despise the Lord’s discipline, and do not resent his rebuke, as a father the son he delights in. Proverbs 3:11-12

 This Scripture I receive right before I came back to my home town. Moment when I asked God to explain or show me were I am right now, He gave me all 3 chapter of Proverbs. Again I was amazed how personal and deep it talked to me: 
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6

It take me hard to do this and I didn't trust in the Lord. And planed my own future. Didn't work out good. 
Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil.This will bring health to your body and nourishment to your bones. Proverbs 3:7-8


This have not been successful to fulfill as well. Lately I have been struggling with pains in my back. As I know I have back deformation. And it is just consequence, thanks God, I have been found the root physical and spiritual.
To make it short - everything what I have done talking about Proverbs 3 I have done it the other way round.
I can't promise no one even not to my self that now I will do right. But what I have been doing have helped me a lot. 
  • Talking about trusting the Lord, well I just have put in the situation were I just don't have another option. Being home for 2 weeks I have been visiting doctors, at the moment I don't have job and I can't do certain types of jobs. And only what I can do is just trust. Trust that God will provide, not only financial support, because I still don't know clear what I am going to do in the future. 
  • I have made priority to recover physically. I have made decision to change my eating  habits. I could say that it is all ready happening I have been limited flour and sugar. I have understand that I want to be free doing it and best for me is do everything step by step. Next steps are to have rehabilitation and visit nutrition specialist.
  • For financial side - I thought this will be the hardest for me to give "Honor the Lord with your wealth, with the first fruits of all your crops;" (Proverbs 3:9) I thought it will be hard because I don't have any incomes and even if I would have (in my head) I would think that I need to give all my money for debt (for Bible school) or for doctors, because these are my priority's. When I started to give either person or church or just bought some who is in need. I saw that God in deed makes my "barns will be filled to overflowing, and your vats will brim over with new wine." (Proverbs 3:10)

Thank you for your valuable time to read my experience with the Lord! I hope you get some reminder or were inspired by what God is doing in my life. If you see some way how you would be part of my recovering process. Please contact me :)


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